First let me say that all my life I wanted to be in the Army and I finally achieved my dream last march. I was planning on doing the green to gold program then finishing my 20 as an officer. Unfortunately during Basic life decided to throw a wrench in my plans. While being "smoked" (we were running multiple laps on the track and then low crawling through sand) I heard a loud audible pop and then my knee gave out. I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with microtears in my ACL and a torn lateral meniscus. I did two 6 week 2 days a week increments of physical therapy which didn't help much but I pretended they did because they were talking about possibly kicking me out. Fast forward to AIT my SSG had me doing jump up sprints and I complained about my knee hurting and asked to stop he informed that I couldn't and I was to keep going. Being the good solider I am I followed orders. That being said I collapased again and this time making it far worse. I had to do another 2 sets of 6 week 2 days a week increments of Physical Therapy. That didn't work very well so they performed surgery(meniscal debriefment and orthoscope w/cortisone injection) that was about a month ago and since surgery I have been doing Physical Therapy twice a week and my knee feels the same as before. My doctor has all but said that I'm lying. My chronic knee pain( which is about a 6-7 non-stop) has caused me to became really really depressed and anxious. I been to BH and they told me I have MDD and anxiety. I have been treated like crap through out my Army Career I'm talking about SSG treating me like a faker and a pariah and having other soldiers do it as well. Everyone other than my Therapist thinks I'm full of shit and I'm done. I can't even think about my future in the Army any more because it causes me to have panic attacks. It is a struggle to get out of bed anymore and basic hygiene seems like a chore. I am miserable and am constantly thinking of suicide(passively) I have been in for about a year now and I wish I never joined. My therapist says that I should look into a meb or medical separation. I never thought it would be like this and I loved the army until I got hurt and been treated like this. It breaks my heart that my childhood dream has been turned into a nightmare. What are my options of getting out but keeping my GI Bill. I feel like I deserve that at the very least. I don't want a paycheck I don't care about that I just want to get better and get out with my GI Bill. Please help me.